Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Sometimes you feel like a nut..

Well. I always feel like a nut but that's beside the point.

So it's been a busy month for me and it's just getting more busy... I had fun at my moms surprise party... Got to see a lot of people I didn't even realize I missed that much. She was REALLY surprised and really excited.

We also had our party for our church musical groups which was fun. Chatting with everyone and eating some DELICIOUS food. It's always hard to leave! Hailey had a blast too.

This last weekend I had my work Christmas party which was a total blast. I love dressing up and going out and hanging out with cool people from work is always nice. It was a really cool place and we had lots of good food and chocolate fountains. yes. amazing. They also had this nifty photo booth thing where we got to take as many pictures as we wanted.. and boy did I!



Just one of the MANY we took..

Other than that I'm just gearing up for Disneyland this weekend with Hailey and Andrew! Should be lots of fun and hopefully not too cold.. then I'm taking Hailey to meet her dad and she's going to spend Christmas with him. We'll do some juggling but it looks like a busy Christmas week for the fam. We're going to be doing our Christmas for her on the 27th, as well as with my grandparents.

Other than that I've just got something going on every single night until early January... oh. and a Doc app for my foot. I think I may have to have surgery. Scary stuff. Nothing too serious but it's surgery none-the-less.

Hope you're all having a good Holiday season and enjoying the cold weather.. I'm sure not! I hate being cold!

<3

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Laughing Baby.

So Hailey has this little "hide and go seek" doll that you hide and then there is a little transmitter that you push the button and it tells you if your hot or cold.. kind of cool.. but the stupid thing laughs and laughs when you can't find her and it's REALLY annoying!

anywho. I've been feeling kind of icky lately with my stomach and a lovely sinus THING that wont go away. The doc said it was "acid reflux" but the pills I've been taking don't help.. I just feel puky every time I eat, but I get really hungry so I have to eat something.. it doesn't matter what it is... I still feel gross. So it's a conundrum...

I'm looking forward to the holidays but I'm also stressing out about how busy I am and how many people I have things to buy for. I know everyone is stressed at this time of year making things happen and you'd think I'd plan better but I'm a fly by the seat of my pants kind of person. So here I am worried about all the people I have to buy gifts for and I have to stop and think.. in the end I'm super blessed to have so many good friends and family that I can buy gifts for... I shouldn't feel so overwhelmed and I should just remember what it's all about. Jesus was born. How amazing is that?

Off to try and eat something. my mom got homemade tamales... YUM!

<3

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Blog on the run...

It seems to me that the only way I can blog is "on the run" meaning in between doing things... so it never comes out quite the way I'd like and there are probably lots of typos and all that madness but I just have to put it down and "edit on the run" later... I want to figure out how to blog from my phone because that would make my life OH so much easier since 98% of the time I'm not on an actual computer so I can't update everyone.. damn. I just wasted half my five minutes of blogging time on how I don't have time to blog...

So lots of fun things are happening this month and next month.. I'm seriously booked pretty much solid through the end of December with parties and events and concerts and goodness... I can't really disclose everything for fear spies will read this and report back to the Peruvian government and ruin the surprise.. why Peru? I don't know.. probably the giant piece of Peruvian art on the wall behind me...

**EDITED**

Back to my room.. I was just checking on my DL for my SD card. I'm so excited for this because I finally have my music back! :)

<3

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Yes We Can

George "Hey Meghan, you know what's awesome?" "what??" "Barack Obama is our new president"

I'm so excited for change. This is a huge day in the lives of many. I am so proud to be an American. I want to run up and down the streets and yell and scream and cry and laugh.

Tomorrow looks like it's going to be a better day...

<3

Yes We Can.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Halloween

I'll post pictures for you later but Hailey is "mitchie" from camp rock (to her she's just a rockstar) and I am dressed as an 80's rockstar. crimped hair and all.


gotta go watch the treaters and take the wee one out.

<3

Meme...

1. Where is your cell phone? couch
2. Your significant other? Andrew
3. Your Hair? Multicolored
4. Your Skin? freckl-ie
5. Your mother? Funny
6. Your favorite thing? Music
7. Your dream last night? Short
8. Your favorite drink? Pepper
9. Your dream/goal? Family
10. The room you're in? Toys
11. Your ex? Friends
12. Your fear? Alone
13.Where do you want to be in 6 years? Successful
14.Where were you last night? Church
15.What you're not? Subtle
16.Muffins? Tops!
17.One of your wish list items? Laptop
18.Where you grew up? Here
19.The last thing you did? Candy
20.What are you wearing? Jammies
21.Your TV? ON
22.Your pets? Sadie
23. Your computer? Dead
24. Your life? Unpredictable
25. Your mood? Impatient.
26. Missing someone? Boy
27. Your car? Javier
28. Something you're not wearing? Ring
29. Favorite Store? Target
30. Your summer? uneventful.
31. Like someone? Lots
32. Your favorite color? Pink
33. When is the last time you laughed? Now
34. Last time you cried? Months
35. Who will respond to this? Lisa?
36. Who's Answers are you anxious to see? YOURS!

<3

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

*cough cough*

I'm sick. again.

what else is new right? I'm about to take some really "good" cold medicine that will hopefully knock me on my butt and help me sleep and feel better tomorrow.

I'm hoping to blog soon about something that's weighing on my heart, however I don't know if I should put it out there..

Pray for me?

<3

Sunday, October 12, 2008

I can't stop smilling

I'm really happy right now.
I've finally gotten into a groove at work.
I've got a great family who drives me nuts in all the best ways.
I'm becoming stronger in my faith.
I've got this "mommy" thing "down" (for the most part)
I met an amazing guy who makes me smile.

yeah. you heard right. There's a new "dude" in my life. I introduced him to the fam-bam and they seem to all like him.. that's all I'm saying for now!

:)

<3

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Four on the Fourth

Today is Hailey's birthday. At 945pm she will have spent four years on this earth. I can't help but think of all the things that have changed in my life and hers since she was born. I can't help but wonder if her future is as bright as it can be. I can't help but wonder if the world is going to be the same when she's 18..

I can however tell you that I'm at peace today. I love my daughter with all my heart and I wish her the best.

Happy Birthday little Rose. Mommy loves you.

<3

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Sickness

Being sick sucks. Mostly because the medicine I'm on makes me so tired I can't function while I'm on it and because being sick makes me wish I was five again and could curl up on the couch and watch cartoons all day.

but today it's back to reality. I'm 24 (weird) and I have to be a grown up and go to work.

Boo.

In other news not having insurance sucks too. Medicine and doctor visits are REALLY expensive!

Off to work.

<3

Monday, September 29, 2008

Sports

Now I like sports. Lets keep this in mind.

I played;
Softball for 12+ years.
Water Polo for 5.
Soccer for 4 (or more.. not so sure..)
Basketball for 2.
Swam for 2.
Dove for 1.

and was in dance and a Broadway- type group singing group.

So I'm no stranger to sports and I enjoy them... however...

I do not want to watch Baseball every night of my life. Or Football.. every once in a while I do enjoy watching a GOOD sporting event. If the Angels are on or the Packers and it's a good game. The world series, the superbowl. But COME ON! I don't want to watch some lame "Angels Live" show with a whole bunch of old angels and cheesy music.

My dad and brother are just remote nazi's these days. I swear it wasn't this bad before but for some reason recently they feel the need to flex their masculinity and dominate the TV with game after game after game... Come ON! Let me watch my cheesy reality shows and night time soaps. I just want to unwind at the end of a long long day at work where everyone is stressed out and crazy.

Oh. The best part of this whole thing is that my dad can be sitting in his little chair either falling asleep, listening to his book on CD or reading the bible and if I try to change the channel look up all surprised and angry and yell "HEY! I was watching that!!"

come on dad.

<3

Ps. So there was one hilarious thing on "angels live" One of the old timers was trying to do an "Angels chant" which went something like this.

Give me an A!
Give me an N!
Give me a G!
Give me an L!
give me and S!

what's that spell??

my brother looks at me and goes... Angles?

haha

Sunday, September 28, 2008

BIRTHDAY!

So today's the big day. It's weird having it on a Sunday only because it's kind of messing up the flow of things... I'm so tired right now because I was up until 515am... talking to an old friend and having a great time, but that doesn't help the fact that I only slept for three hours.. so I'm pretty sure my birthday is going to be spent napping or going to bed unceremoniously early. Oh well. at least I'm getting Olive Garden delivered instead of dragging myself (literally) out to the restaurant! Last night had it's ups and downs but generally ended on a good note.. I am so thankful for the friends I have and the life I have, but I still feel like a six year old who gets really upset when she's not the center of attention.. although it IS my birthday and I DEMAND that you pay attention to me on this day. haha. jk. sort of.

I will have a few pictures once we figure out what's wrong with my parents computer! I really hate that my computer is broken. That's honestly why I can't blog as much as I'd like because I have to use other peoples computers! I miss my beast!

I'm so thirsty. Damn alcohol for drying out your system! I'm going to put my head under a faucet and then take a nap.

<3

PS. I'm pretty sure I don't make any sense right now. Please hold for a more coherent post at a later date.

Monday, September 22, 2008

LATE!

I work in Santa Ana which is about 20 miles from my house.
I start work at 7am.
Normal days I wake up at 530am.
I leave at 6-610.
I get to work at 645-655.
I woke up at 639am today.

OOPS :)

but at this point I don't want to rush off to work. That always makes for a bad day. Besides. I had to check all of my "e-vites" from yesterday on my various sites. And somehow the actual e-vite I made never got sent. Le-lame.. Well I guess this is a good place to say... HEY! If you want to come to my b-day celebration It's next Saturday night at 7pm at mi casa. If you don't know where that is e-mail me for directions megara.liz009@gmail.com and I'll send em to you.

I think I'm gonna need some coffee for this morning. Even though I got the extra sleep (oops!) I'm tired and caffeine deprived :)

hopefully it's a good monday!

<3

Sunday, September 21, 2008

**long weeks**

These last few weeks have been long ones. Work's been crazy. Being mommy has been crazy and finances have been limited and frustrating.

Pre-school is going really well for Hailey. She loves it SO much and is really blossoming and learning so much. We're attempting right now to go through her toys and weed out the ones she doesn't play with in preparation for her birthday and the mass amount of crap I'm sure she'll get. *grin*

I had a great Saturday and was "kidnapped" by two of my best friends who took me to the Getty Villa in Malibu, then made me dinner and surprised me with a few good friends I haven't seen in forever. It was overall a great day and just fun to hang out with good people I haven't seen in a long time.

I'm still trying to "plan" a birthday party for myself however I have a feeling I'm just going to be like. Hey. Come over on Saturday and hang. I'll have some Alcohol, bring some more and we'll just have a good time. I'm going to attempt to plan more, but eh. As long as I'm surrounded by good friends I'm good.

Anyway. On to trying to convince an almost four year old to part with toys she never plays with.. It's going to be a long night.

<3

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Uggh

yeah. With two g's. I hate being broke. I hate being tired and I REALLY hate when I'm tired, I know I have to go to work tomorrow and I STILL can't sleep.

BALLS.

<3

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

First Day

Today was the first day for her... All of us have taken pictures in front of the bricks in our front yard for every school year since I started school. My mom made little "watch me grow" boards for our graduations and I guess we've decided to continue the tradition with Hailey..

Today was bittersweet. I am really excited that she's starting pre-k but it's also scary because I've got to decide a lot this next year.. I need to decide if she's ready for kindergarten next year or if I should keep her out for one more year until she's almost six. She'll be in the exact boat I was in when I started school.. I was always younger than my classmates and would turn the age most of them already were in the first few weeks of school. Her birthday is a week after mine so it will be my schooling all over again. My mom says sometimes she regrets not putting me in school later and is almost pushing me to keep her out.. the rebel in me wants to put her in just to spite her, but I know that's not what I'll do. She's not the only one that's told me an extra year is good for them, but I honestly don't know if I would be holding her back. She's such a smart kid and picks up on things so fast I KNOW she'd do great.. if I keep her back would I hold her back? I guess all I can do is see how she takes to pre-k, talk to her teacher at the end of the year and decide then.. but I am going to take all the steps to ensure that it's something I decide.

My Grandpa's doing well.. he's recovering at St Jude from his surgery yesterday, which was scary to me. I love my grandpa so so much and to see him so frail and needy is a little scary since he's always been so tough.. but I guess if I look at it in a different light I can say he's just as tough since he's been through so much in the last few years.. My Grandparents have been amazing in these last few years with Hailey. They love her so much and she loves them. They're so adorable with each other and I'm glad she's getting to know them. I can't even explain how much I appreciate what they do for us on a daily basis..

Gotta go take care of some stuff. She's going to spend the night at Grandma's tonight :)

<3

I HATE this...

Patients was never a virtue I had.

I've already had a super shitty morning.

Hailey decided to eat half a container of sprinkles.

I can't get my cell phone until Friday now because Verizon and my bank are STUPID..

and I should be getting her ready for school but I have no desire to.

I hate being me sometimes.

<3

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Home

So I've never been the most organized person in the world, but I'd like to think I'm not a total slob. I mean, My room is organized chaos. If I need something I usually know the general area of it. I am always fighting myself on the clothes front, constantly getting rid of clothes or hanging on to sentimental things. I'm a borderline pack rat, but I like to keep mementos. Like movie theater tickets and old letters and cards..

A VERY recent conversation with a some good friends reminded me of how much I love my house. Not because of it's location. Not because I've lived here my entire life *minus the two years I lived in the dorms.. which so don't count as moving...* but because of my family and the way we live in a home. I had a friend who lived across the street from me growing up and her mom was a total and complete neat FREAK. Nothing could be out of place and she would find a CRUMB on the carpet and freak out and yell until someone fessed up to it.. she used to love coming over to my house because it was (and is) "lived in" We don't have a formal living room full of furniture that nobody sits on, we don't have a dinning room table that's in pristine condition, we've got couches that are loved, carpet with wear and dishes and laundry. I like to think that instead of spending all our time cleaning and worrying about how everything needs to be in it's place, we spend time laughing and talking and playing with my daughter or our dog.

I know some people might scoff and think that our house is "gross" or whatever. But to me it's home. It's not like we've got science experiment food sitting out. We just find it more important to spend the few hours on a Saturday making memories and having fun rather than polishing furniture we don't use.

*grin*

<3

Thursday, August 28, 2008

**defining moments**

A Meme. from George

So here are the instructions:

Tell the world what you believe are the 10 Defining Moments of your Generation - and then tell the world what you believe are YOUR personal 10 Defining Moments. Then tell the world why you chose the moments you did.

The 10 Defining Moments of My Generation (In No Particular Order)

1. MTV- It's hard to say, but I don't think my generation would be who we are without music videos.. and MTV & VH1 really started the music television revolution. Now there are tons of channels with TONS of different genre's of videos.

2. TGIF- I remember sitting down with my family on Friday nights and being SO excited to watch the latest episodes of Full House, Mr Belvedere and if I was lucky Step by Step or Family Matters.. and I remember going to school on Monday, and talking about the episodes with everyone who actually got to see it. No Tivo to record, you had to figure out the VCR timer if you wanted to tape it and if you missed it you missed it..

3. Columbine- I remember how scary that was for me. Hearing about all the kids that were shot, hearing all the news stories on what happened, watching all the interviews and hearing the intimate details of what happened. I younger and a whole lot of naive, but I remember that was my wake up call that bad things can still happen, even in our modern times. I also remember the chain of threats and panic that swept the schools, ours included. We had a prayer chain around our senior park, and everyone in our school was united.. we wouldn't be scared away from our education.

4. September 11th - Another of those events that really rocked my world. I remember the panic that ensued after. I remember going to school and talking with friends who's parents were keeping their kids home. I remember watching the news all day in every single class and sitting with the very few kids that were still at school and talking to my teachers about what happened and everyone being in general shock.

5. Gas Prices- It's sad to say it but this is a defining moment in our generation because never in a million years did economists dream that gas prices could reach the prices they are at now. I distinctly remember my high school Econ teacher (Mr Thompson) telling us gas prices would hit a ceiling of four dollars, but they would surely never rise about that.. We've reached almost 5 dollars a gallon.. which severely effects everything from vacation to day to day living. SO many Californian's can't afford to drive to work and can't rely on our public transportation, which in some of the most populated areas is REALLY lacking.

6. Computers- Not just the Internet, not just PDA's or hand-helds or laptops, but even just a desktop. I'm amazed at how they've affected the way things are done in this generation. So many things are "paperless" and "web-based" that the need for so many inventions of the past are obsolete. A lot of jobs were lost to computers and so many people make their careers in computers, which was unheard of in past generations.

7. Going Green- So many Americans are joining the fight against global warming, and I've really seen the number of people in my generation who are genuinely interested in helping and recycling and taking notice of the problem increase.. not only a select few who in past generations would have been type-cast as weird or activist. Everyone is playing their part.

8. Downloading/ iPods- More and more technology are making amazing products of the past obsolete or "vintage" and I have a feeling actual CD's and even DVD's are fast becoming part of the record or 8-track type technology, cool to remember, cool to collect but not really practical. I mean, I'm amazed at how much is available for download. Stuff that you could previously find only in stores, I could most likley pirate or download from iTunes or Apple.com

9. Vote or Die- To me one of the biggest defining moments. I mean, it not only showed how important our votes are and how much of our generation wasn't a part of the political process, it showed us how much of an influence and how important celebrities are to our generation.. which leads me to my 10th...

10. Heath Ledger's Death- I was amazed and in shock when he died. I know there have been other deaths in my lifetime of amazing people like George Carlin and LeRoi Moore, but for some reason the death of Heath Ledger really hit my generation, and will go down as a big moment for a lot of us.

And now Mine. (in no order whatsoever)

1. TEC (Teens Encounter Christ)- I was 16 years old and had never experienced anything like it. It opened my eyes to so much and although it's been a constant struggle ever since, it's been an experience like no other and introduced me to some of my best friends and a community of people unlike any I've ever met, along with VDC.

2. My dad's heart attacks- I realized that I had to grow up and stop living in my little bubble if I wanted to to be treated like an adult. I also saw how my family protected me, more often than not, from the bad things in our lives because they didn't think I could handle it. It opened my eyes and showed me what an amazing family, extended and blood, I actually have, it also made my immediate family a whole lot closer.

3. My 22 birthday in SF- It was the BIGGEST deal to me. It was the first birthday EVER that I hadn't been with my family. I didn't go to dinner with them on my birthday, and it was the first time I went on such a long trip with just one other friend. I spent the weekend exploring the city and really growing up. It was only two years ago, but it was such a big moment for me.

4. St Andrew's Lutheran Church- Going to this church really changed not only my life, but my families. We had struggled with leaving Emanuel, mostly for my benefit and when I went away to college and CCOL, my family spent a lot of time searching for a new church home, and boy did they find it. Some of our best friends and closest relationships are with that church family. We've grown as a family and been able to share so much with the congregation and them sharing so much with us, but my real personal defining moment was when I joined the rejoice band. My family had all found their friends in the church and I was a little lost when I moved home.. but as soon as I joined the rejoice band I met George who introduced me to so many amazing people including his family and amazing friends, who have all accepted me and shown me more love than I can imagine.

5. Getting Pregnant- Not the actual birth of my daughter, but the absolute personal struggle I went through when I found out, when I told a few people, when I decided what to do and when I finally told my friends and family. It was an incredibly humbling and scary and stressful situation. A really low point in my life.. which is sad because my daughter is such a blessing, but while I was pregnant I was ready to lose everything. I distinctly remember sitting on the bed in my dorm about to call my parents and tell them everything and being mentally ready for them to disown me. Scary to think what I would have lost.

6. The birth and life of Hailey Rose- An amazing transformation for me. I was no longer Meghan, but Mommy. I am still Meghan but now the mommy that comes with it just amazes me. She keeps me grounded, makes me want to be a better person and is bringing out at side of me I never knew I had. It's been a struggle, it's been hard, and I know it will continue to be hard, but every time I see her I can't help but smile.. even when she's peeling the paint off my walls (yes. she did that today)

7. The death of Cody (my dog)- Now I know it seems silly, but he was the absolute definition of my childhood. He was my dog for as long as I can remember. He protected me, he slept in my bed or next to it, he was always right there when I left and when I got back. He played with me, traveled with me and even broke out of our backyard and was found wandering the halls of our high school because he missed me! He died right before Hailey was born, and it really marked, for me, the ending of my childhood..

8. My first car- It wasn't my license that made me mobile, because when I got my license it was more of an "I should really do this before I graduate" rather than an "I need my license" I had friends who drove, older siblings and my parents (as a last resort of course) but I also lived in a pretty small town where I could walk or take the bus if I needed to, but when I went to college my freshman year and lived in a much larger city and realized I couldn't walk or roller blade anymore, it was time to get my act together and get a car. And boy did I. My "time-warp machine" a 96 Cherry red mustang. I still remember my parents surprising me with it at the dorms. They told me I was getting a red Kia, and my brother drives up in this mustang. I had no idea what to say and for weeks would walk out and wonder why I had keys to this red mustang.

9. Going to a University (CSUB), and living in the dorms- I can't believe how much I took for granted at first with how huge of a moment that freedom was for me. In hindsight I went a little crazy with the freedom, but for the most part It was just an absolutely amazing experience for me. It was the first time in my entire 17 years that I'd lived anywhere but my little house in La Habra and it was absolutely invigorating and terrifying. I still remember my first night in my dorm and how absolutely excited I was to be living somewhere on my own and not having to answer to anyone but myself. But with great freedom comes great responsibility and finding the balance between fun and class and bills got really hard for me, luckily I met Angel and Chris, who kept me on track and showed me how to live a successful dorm life, while still having tons of fun :)

10. Moving Home- After being out on my own for even those two years, I realized how much freedom and perks of having my own place I had taken for granted, the thought of moving back in with parents is never a pleasant one at almost 20, but I honestly could not have survived without their support. Or the support of my extended famiy, new and old friends. It was hard. REALLY hard for me to leave Bakersfield and the friends and family I have there, but I have found a balance and as much as I miss every single one of my friends there, I don't regret moving home one bit.

Geez. This was REALLY hard.. but like I said. I don't regret any of these defining moments or look back and wish things were different. Everything happens for a reason, from the biggest disasters of our generation to the death of a pet. It all defines who we are and it all affects us in different ways.

<3

Sunday, August 24, 2008

**theme**

So I've decided that my theme is going to be a "cocktail" attire type party (to give people a chance to dress up) and my colors are brown and blue. Chocolate and Aqua. Milky and Robins egg. Not sure the exact combo it all seriously depends on what I find but I need to head over to my favorite place (target!) and find SOMETHING so I can send out invites and get a feel for who's going to come. Now I need addresses..

Hailey picked her theme too.. it's Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and she's really excited about it.

She wanted to do a kitties theme, but they didn't have it online.. although it would have been easier with the colors, I guess I can swing a "Disney" themed party.

why do parties have to be so expensive?! And so tiresome to plan. I'm hoping I can plan mine in a quick amount of time and spend a lot of time on hers.. since it's her golden b-day and such a big deal :)

<3