Four on the Fourth

Today is Hailey's birthday. At 945pm she will have spent four years on this earth. I can't help but think of all the things that have changed in my life and hers since she was born. I can't help but wonder if her future is as bright as it can be. I can't help but wonder if the world is going to be the same when she's 18..

I can however tell you that I'm at peace today. I love my daughter with all my heart and I wish her the best.

Happy Birthday little Rose. Mommy loves you.

<3

BIRTHDAY!

So today's the big day. It's weird having it on a Sunday only because it's kind of messing up the flow of things... I'm so tired right now because I was up until 515am... talking to an old friend and having a great time, but that doesn't help the fact that I only slept for three hours.. so I'm pretty sure my birthday is going to be spent napping or going to bed unceremoniously early. Oh well. at least I'm getting Olive Garden delivered instead of dragging myself (literally) out to the restaurant! Last night had it's ups and downs but generally ended on a good note.. I am so thankful for the friends I have and the life I have, but I still feel like a six year old who gets really upset when she's not the center of attention.. although it IS my birthday and I DEMAND that you pay attention to me on this day. haha. jk. sort of.

I will have a few pictures once we figure out what's wrong with my parents computer! I really hate that my computer is broken. That's honestly why I can't blog as much as I'd like because I have to use other peoples computers! I miss my beast!

I'm so thirsty. Damn alcohol for drying out your system! I'm going to put my head under a faucet and then take a nap.

<3

PS. I'm pretty sure I don't make any sense right now. Please hold for a more coherent post at a later date.

LATE!

I work in Santa Ana which is about 20 miles from my house.
I start work at 7am.
Normal days I wake up at 530am.
I leave at 6-610.
I get to work at 645-655.
I woke up at 639am today.

OOPS :)

but at this point I don't want to rush off to work. That always makes for a bad day. Besides. I had to check all of my "e-vites" from yesterday on my various sites. And somehow the actual e-vite I made never got sent. Le-lame.. Well I guess this is a good place to say... HEY! If you want to come to my b-day celebration It's next Saturday night at 7pm at mi casa. If you don't know where that is e-mail me for directions megara.liz009@gmail.com and I'll send em to you.

I think I'm gonna need some coffee for this morning. Even though I got the extra sleep (oops!) I'm tired and caffeine deprived :)

hopefully it's a good monday!

<3

**long weeks**

These last few weeks have been long ones. Work's been crazy. Being mommy has been crazy and finances have been limited and frustrating.

Pre-school is going really well for Hailey. She loves it SO much and is really blossoming and learning so much. We're attempting right now to go through her toys and weed out the ones she doesn't play with in preparation for her birthday and the mass amount of crap I'm sure she'll get. *grin*

I had a great Saturday and was "kidnapped" by two of my best friends who took me to the Getty Villa in Malibu, then made me dinner and surprised me with a few good friends I haven't seen in forever. It was overall a great day and just fun to hang out with good people I haven't seen in a long time.

I'm still trying to "plan" a birthday party for myself however I have a feeling I'm just going to be like. Hey. Come over on Saturday and hang. I'll have some Alcohol, bring some more and we'll just have a good time. I'm going to attempt to plan more, but eh. As long as I'm surrounded by good friends I'm good.

Anyway. On to trying to convince an almost four year old to part with toys she never plays with.. It's going to be a long night.

<3