Sundays

For me are for church, lunch and naps.

but no. I have to go to work.. and at 1030am. BOO.

I hate when my routine is thrown off.. and I was dreaming about Starbucks last night.

Now if my brother would get out of the bathroom I might actually be on time..

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Bills... College... Changes...

Don't you wish you could get a "catch up" card? Like someone would just pay off your debt and give you a few months breathing room? I hate that no matter how hard I try not to be in the hole every week/ two weeks/ month I am. Somehow I get by but it's getting super ridiculous that I can't seem to catch up. I'm also applying for college now because I'm sick of not having a direction.. I think I'm mostly terrified that if I get into something I'm going to be "stuck" with it for the rest of my life, but looking at it even if I do start a career type job with college training I'm just opening up my opportunities to see what I really want and I can eventually make more money to pursue other things.

anyway. I've applied to Cypress College and am enrolling in the Radiology program to become an x-ray tech. It's a big step for me.. I've also applied for financial aid. so all the prayer and good vibes you can muster would be awesome.

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Tomorrowland Costume Part Duex

So I've mentioned the loathing I feel toward these lovely costumes and I had to post the two pictures I happened to take on my phone the other day... they aren't great but you'll get the idea...

This is a close up of the "celestial" fabric covering the front part..

I call this one embracing the cheese... hence the hat and cheeseball grin.



now what you can't see is the sleeves which have that bright orange and blue fabric with a few of those buttons and some random grey/ silver... what you also can't tell is that those buttons go from left to right in a sort of "panel" and they aren't "buttons" but snaps... so you know.. you can rip them off if you ever want to become a tomorrowland stripper...

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ps. that's the back of Indie :)

Tomorrowland Costume

So this is a quick little diddy to let you know the loathing I feel towards the new tomorrowland costumes. They're ridiculous. Orange and Blue with "celestial" panels.

okay so blogger is orange and blue. but blogger isn't something you WEAR..

and just take a guess at where I got put today?! Guess?! yeah.

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Snoop Dogg and Le Tiredness.

So I was walking out to my lunch totally in my own little Meghan world when I see these people like taking pictures of something.. I look around and don't see any characters so I'm confused but still walking and all of a sudden I almost run into this big huge bodyguard type guy... so I apologize to him and look up and see Snoop walking across Mainstreet drinking a Dasani... maybe THAT'S why I sold so much water. product placement. anyway ... It was super random.. gotta love disney..

oh. and I heard from one of our leads that later he bought 35 waters off one of our carts... that'll be $96.25 please... how the hell do you carry 35 bottles of water?! Oh right. Money. haha.

So I'm super tired and sore today from working yesterday and I don't want to go to work this week at ALL. I'm considering changing my availability to only available after 230 or something... especially since Hailey will be in preschool and I want to be able to take her and pick her up... so I might as well get them used to that schedule. Plus working at 11 or 12 means I have to wake up, shower, get a costume together and leave. which is uber lame.

and I don't even have the costume I need for today. I'm totally wearing one of my random ones and changing. HAH! I'm not so happy with Disney right now. Mostly my hours just REALLY suck. I've gotta stick with it even though I really don't want to.. why can't I get paid to do something I actually like? You know. like sleeping or singing.. that'd be sweet.

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Friday Night.. and the moooood is right

wow. I think back to the days I used to wait for Friday night because I was soooo excited to watch TGIF. Hah.. Now I'm getting ready to go out in a few hours...

anyway.

I guess this is a quick post to say that I don't feel like I'm really in my body. I hate boys and I wish they would stop playing games. KEVIN.

and Brad.

eh. someone'll appreciate me someday.

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Mainstreet Balloons...

yes. that's where I was today... and let me tell you holding 45 or more balloons for 8 hours aint easy... I earned my money today! First of all it was windy... which if you can imagine with the hundreds of people walking around gets pretty messy because you have to try NOT to take out little kids with your gaggle of balloons (but it's pretty funny when you hit some unsuspecting person in the face with them... total accident.. I SWEAR! *grin*) Then there is the fact that during the day you can't really walk around mainstreet anyway since the horses are spooked by the balloons (although that'd be a carriage ride the guests would never forget... haha) and THEN there is the simple fact that you have these incredibly heavy (yes heavy) handful of balloons that you have to maneuver while tying weights on the bottom of one of them and taking money/ giving change... But never-the-less I loved it!

On another note I was in SUCH a bad mood yesterday... you know that whole chain of events thing where everything was just going wrong and eventually you wonder if you're on some sort of hidden camera show? yeah. that was my day yesterday.. But I got an amazingly hilarious message from Lisa that made my night.. oh! And some psychic wanted to give me a reading while I was walking back from my break.. she gave me her number and she's like.. I'm getting something VERY strong from you.. it was kind of creepy and one of those things where you're like.. Now I want to know what it is!! Oh and I seriously HATE churro sugar now... like hate. It's in every single pocket of my teal uniform and I have a silicone phone cover that I could wrap in a waxie and sell for three bucks.... heh.

I was seriously blogging in my head the other day while I was driving home from Bakersfield.. I want to sit down and write out the difference between Orange County/ La Habra and Bakersfield because of anyone.. I'd know! But I'm way too tired to do it tonight :) So that's all my ramblings for tonight... I'm off to bed...

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ps. I switched to Diet... and it's not all that bad :)

Let my lifesong sing

I've had that song stuck in my head all night.. except I've had the VDC band version... "let my lifelong ling..." haha. Good times.

I had the best time hanging out with Jessica and Dane the other night.. we started off at Back Alley (lame) went to Envy (Uber lame) Went to Ziings (watched part of Harold and Kumar and laughed at the four people dancing.. lame) and then ended up at Tuscany where we met the most amazing guys from New Zealand. They were SO funny because they'd never been to the US before and were so culture shocked at how different it was here. We pretty much just talked to them the whole night and tried to let them in on a little of our culture while learning from them as well... aka "the American pound" and the "New Zealand snap". Now if you're slightly confused think about a room full of guys who are saying hello.. now imagine they don't know each other well but are expressing their good feelings towards them. They might do the "hand grab two pounds on the back" hug or they might do the "hand slide to a fist" right? Well I guess in New Zealand they have a different approach.. they slide their hands off each other and get a good snap and then they snap their fingers and point out... of course to american guys this may seem rather.. erm... girly so we had to set them straight. We spent the WHOLE night discussing the difference between Orange County/ LA and New Zealand. Down to the tattoo parlors and how expensive everything is there. They were fascinated that a Honda only costs about 24,000 brand new. There it was something like 40,000... haha.

Anyway. My new friends aside I just had a good time singing some karaoke... now this is my other story from the night. I'm not the most confident person on the planet when it comes to anything, however I know there are people who wouldn't get up to karaoke unless overly drunk, and I can get up there drinking only water which I know is a feat in itself.. however I can't help but laugh because it seems that EVERY TIME I do karaoke... and I do mean EVERY time... I get a drunk person who comes up to me after and slurs at me.. "you are a really good singer!! You should be on American Idol!!! Have you auditioned yet!? You totally should!" I just smile and tell them yes. I'm eventually going to audition and they go on their happy drunk way.

All of that was Wednesday night. yes Wednesdays can be fun too. :)

Yesterday wasn't nearly as interesting.. although errand thursday's can be fun. I went to the bank (haha) with Jessica to screw myself out of money *eye roll... long story* then took my car in to pay way too much money for an oil change, checked out buffalo exchange... which was entertaining and I bought my first pair of giant sunglasses... and then came home.

on a side note. Scrubs is awesome.

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The Right Stuff

So I rekindled my odd love of 90's pop music, but more importantly my ridiculous love of New Kids On The Block! haha. and then I listened to Aqua Aquarium and Madonna's Immaculate collection! It's good times.. and it's ridiculous how many songs I actually know word for word.

I'm hoping to hang out with my bestie tonight. I haven't actually hung with her in a long time and I'm starting to really really miss her! Tomorrow I need to get going on my laundry (ugh) and find a way to balance my bedroom with the mass amounts of other stuff in our house that needs to get done. My mom wants to clean the carpets cause we bought our own carpet cleaner *eye roll*

I'm still struggling, but getting to a better place.

I think that's all there is to say..

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self titled album

It's so hard to name your blog. Megtastic Voyage was the first thing that popped into my head so tada! I wish I could say that I'm in a good mood and happy and go lucky and all those other fun things that make me who I am, however I'm struggling right now. Struggling with the realization that I'm not who I was and I don't know if I'm okay with that. I recently went to work at a three day movement called Via De Cristo or VDC, which is a short intense study on Christianity and what it means to be a Christian. It's full of laughter, tears, joy, sorrow, self examination and good food. I adore the people involved and though there are the occasional religious nuts or just buckwild people it's always a fulfilling experience to spend time with God in a place you feel safe and able to just be who you are on the inside, outwardly. I have to say this time I tried to keep my own emotions on the DL since it's really about the people experiencing the weekend for the first time, but when I got home I was so drained and emotional that my thoughts and fears got the best of me and I broke down. I realized a few things people said in their talks really hit me hard and I wanted to change who I was on the outside to reflect who I'm struggling to be.

I know this doesn't make a lot of sense to anyone who happens to read this, but it's so hard to be me right now I sometimes just wish I was someone else. I want to talk to some friends of mine about what I'm struggling with but I don't know how to initiate that contact and get that started without our "reunions" which happen so infrequently lately that I feel like I'm slipping back into the quiet desperation of my life again. I'm just so mixed up that I can't vocalize how I feel. I'm being pulled in a million different directions and on one hand it's comfortable being me and being the happy go-crazy person I am, but on the other hand I want to be able to show my true self to those who I feel don't know the me on the inside and I can't help but wonder if it's always been a facade that I've put on because I've never had that moment of clarity I so long for and I see so many others have.

So here's to finding myself.

and yes. I did blog about it.

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Hah! New one AGAIN

So basically I forgot my password and e-mail I used for my old blog, however found an even older blog from when I was a senior in hs and a freshman in college and decided to use that e-mail to make a new blog...

or something like that.

anyway. Megtastic Voyage was the best I could come up with.

I'm all full of things to write, so give me a second to unpack my things and I'll be back to let some of this out.

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