iPod Shuffle

So I know this was for the D-community, but I'm kind of a part of it.. in a supporting actress kind of way.. besides. I love these things...

stolen from George who took it from Cara and was also done by Karen
(from Geo's blog)
Cara posted a challenge to the Diabetes Online Community earlier this week... I wanted to join in. So below is the first 20 songs my iPod decided to shuffle in. I have also added my commentary since I can never seem to shut my mouth. (which is true for me too *grin*)

1. Respect- Train (Great CD. Reminds me of sitting on my best friends roof at 2 in the morning contemplating life.. in all my 16 year old glory and wisdom...)

2. One Step At A Time- Jordin Sparks
(one of those impulse downloads that I'm not really sure if I like, but it's nice every once in awhile.)

3. Unforgettable- Nat King Cole (one amazing song.. makes me want to dance in a gazebo with my prince charming.. was also sung by Jack and Karen in the Series finale of Will & Grace and makes me cry every time because it's not the characters, it's the actors singing to each other... *NERD*!!)

4. The Angel and the One- Weezer (from their newest album, it's very "early" Weezer sounding. Good stuff)

5. S.O.S.- Jonas Brothers- (I have a four year old who LOVES the Jonas Brothers and can work my iPod... I swear!!!)

6. Cupid's Chokehold- Gym Class Heroes (love the hook, but also have the supertramp version, which is the one I grew up with.. my dad...)

7. Brass Bed- Josh Gracin- (I've got a soft spot for pop country, but LOVE this song.. it's so sweet!)

8. By My Side- 3 Doors Down - (Used to be OBSESSED with this album.. oddly enough I now love the by my side from Godspell *grin*)

9. Stayin Alive- Bee Gee's - (Because it's an incredibly fun car-e-oke song. and I love the Bee Gee's...)

10. London Calling- The Clash (Because everyone needs a little UK punk rock in their lives.)

11. Remember When It Rained- Josh Grobin- (He has such a pure voice. It's really calming... oh. and my mom wants me to marry him... riiiiight mom)

12. I Have Friends in Holy Spaces- Panic At The Disco (Minus the ! but still good. I'll admit it. I love this album and their first one....)

13. Bubbly- Colbie Caillat (I AM a girl... Cute song. Met her before she became "famous" good times.)

14. Don't be a Baby, Baby- Michael Buble (not bubble. It's BOOO BLEEEEY! I love this guy. His voice is like belbet.. VELvet. haha.)

15. If I Ruled the World- Tony Bennett (Come on, who doesn't want to rule the world? This is my "old soul" coming through..)

16. Carry On My Wayward Son- Kansas (reminds me of driving with my parents, and totally a fun car-e-oke song)

17. Wrapped Up In You- Garth Brooks (another cute song.. I used to sing this in water polo in the pool all the time. Also used to be "a song" for me and a boyfriend... he used to sing it to me... badly *grin*)

18. Feels Like Today- Rascal Flatts (totally uplifting and so much fun. I love Rascal Flatts. Pop Country!)

19. Try A Little Tenderness- Michael Buble (She may be weary...)

20. Good Love Is On The Way- John Mayer (whew! I was worried for a minute he wasn't gonna make it on the list. Which is weird since I've got every song he's ever recorded on my iTunes.. I LOVE John Mayer. This is from where the light is live in los angeles. SUCH an amazing CD/ artist..)


I only "skipped" once because it was a Dane Cook track, and it's all about MUSIC not COMEDY. besides. I only have Dane Cook and Mitch Hedburg on my iTunes..

I'm actually surprised certain artists didn't come up.. Third Day, Frank Sinatra, Maroon 5, Brett Dennen, JEW, Adele, The Sounds.... oh well. maybe next time..

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**Godspell & Gimpy**

update on my foot. It's doing better, but I still have stitches so next week I'll get them out... taking a shower with one foot outside the shower SUCKS! haha.

I'm about to go audition for Godspell at our church.. should be interesting. Of course I'm freaking out but what are you gonna do... I hate auditions. SERIOUSLY hate them.

anywho. here's a few new pics of the gory mess that is my foot.. jk.. they're not that bad.




OUTTIE! Like a belly button <3

Foot Surgery

I had my foot surgery on Friday. I hate what it's called.. you know how everyone had those words they hate? Bunion is one of mine. It sounds so gross.. but it's really just your toe growing wrong and the bones sticking out the side.. anyway. I had the surgery done on Friday and it hurts.. I've been sitting in this chair in our living room or in my bed for the past 24 hours with my foot up in the air. I'm getting nervous to actually try to stand on it.. I'm afraid I've forgotten how to use it. I have crutches, but they're for someone four inches taller than me so they're a little hard to use.. My shoulders are starting to hurt. The worst part is when they put me out they intubate me (put a giant tube down my throat to help me breath) and my throat STILL hurts. Anyway. I'm gonna finish watching the rest of the TIVO I haven't watched yet.. haha.

Here's a few pictures... you can't see anything gross. but you better believe as soon as I can unwrap it and take pictures I'm going to!

haha







yep :) that's me on Vicodin! Oh, and PS, all three of these were taken by my four year old daughter.... haha

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iPod touch

So Im playing with my new toy.. I love it. I've wanted an iphone forever but since I have verizon I couldn't get it! But now I've got this which is pretty much the same thing! Typing with it isn't the easiest but it does correct mistakes which is cool! Ok I'm off to play some more!!

Editing.. found this little nugget...

"Another almost year later, 8 months or so, and here I lay just as confused as the first time I wrote in any of the five (million) journals I have. I can't help but laugh at myself and smile at how real I can be in the face of stress or anger. I also laugh at my penmanship and how I'm probably the only one who can read most of it. I've thought about how sometimes I wish I'd written more in these journals over the years but I realize that these journals represent me for the last eight years from the naive 15 year old I was to the naive, yet weathered (almost) 24 year old that I am. Looking back gives me so much perspective and so much insight into myself that it helps me grow, see mistakes and remember good times with a smile. I recently said (on my blog) that at times it is so hard to be me, but it's times I take the time to really reflect that I finally see just how far I've come and just how far I have left to go"

So I guess this started as a draft that I never finished.. sometimes I can be so profound... LAFF!

I feel like I've grown even in the last few months. "job" (as it will now forever be refereed to for reasons that I'll tell you later.. if you REALLY want to know) is going well.. I'm really having a good time and we've got an amazing group of girls who seem to all get along pretty well.. for the most part.. well.. as well as a bunch of girls in a small space CAN get along :) haha. I'm enjoying my boyfriend time.. which was rocky for like three days but we've talked and grown and are moving on with our lives. I'm kind of getting things together in my financial life.. I've at least admitted I have a problem.. that's the first step right? Yeah.. that's still a tough one. I've also managed to keep myself pretty on top of things with my health which I've been slacking on and as of Friday 1/16/09 I've stopped eating meat... again... (we'll see how long it lasts this time :) I'm hoping for at least a year... I don't know why but it's just something I've been contemplating for a long time..) I still eat fish.. but I don't eat fish THAT often anyway. So far I've enjoyed Tofu dishes I've made and lots of peanut butter... haha.

So in "short" I guess I'm doing okay. I'm suddenly reminded of one of my most favorite lyrics... "Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be so hard"

Thank you Coldplay.

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Sick

Being sick SUCKS.. I've been sick since Friday. It started with a sinus infection, moved to my throat, moved to my chest and last night.. my stomach.

I hate this. I can't function and I don't want to DO anything. I don't feel right and I don't know how to FEEL right.

Off to make some noodles for lunch.

I'm trying this vegetarian thing again. So far. So good.

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Cabin Fever

So I'm going a little nuts. Since I got home from work yesterday I haven't left my house... well. I've ventured as far as the back cement, but I haven't ventured further than that. I'm going crazy here. I need to get out and do something. Problem? I have no money, no gas and no babysitter.

Any ideas?

I'm seriously going to scream if I don't get out of here. The most exciting thing I've done all day is getting into my bathing suit (like I did when I was 7) and giving Sadie a bath... oh. and I made my dad a spreadsheet.

AUGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Save me?

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MILK

So I went and saw Milk last night with a free movie ticket my grandparents gave me for Christmas... I went with Jessica and Andrew and we went to Brea to see it... La Habra seems to play all their movies at 8 or 1030 so we opted for the 940 showing at Brea 12.

I wasn't too sure what the movie was about at first.. I'd only seen one preview for it a long time ago (I don't see "adult" movie previews too often considering most of the movies I see are animated) but I knew I wanted to see it and that it was about a guy named Harvey Milk who ran for office in San Fran as an openly gay man..

synopsis according to IMDB.com-
Using flashbacks from a statement recorded late in life and archival footage for atmosphere, this film traces Harvey Milk's career from his 40th birthday to his death. He leaves the closet and New York, opens a camera shop that becomes the salon for San Francisco's growing gay community, and organizes gays' purchasing power to build political alliances. He runs for office with lover Scott Smith as his campaign manager. Victory finally comes on the same day Dan White wins in the city's conservative district. The rest of the film sketches Milk's relationship with White and the 1978 fight against a statewide initiative to bar gays and their supporters from public school jobs.

The movie started and I was immediately transfixed.. It started with news footage from the 70's and was filmed with an indie- low budge kind of feel and I dig that. It made me laugh. It made me tear up and even made me shed a few tears.. But most of all it made me think. Any movie that can make me think and feel and want to discuss like that after I see it is a winner in my book.

I think the hardest part about watching that movie was the immediate sick feeling I got when I thought of the whole Prop 8 debates from this last election. SO much of it mirrored the Prop 6 debates that were going on in the late 70's. I was amazed at how much.. down to bumper stickers that said "yes on 6, protect our children" I couldn't get over how ignorant and bigoted Anita Bryant and John Briggs sounded.. I'll admit openly that I had no idea who Harvey Milk was or that any of this had happened before but I will tell you that I feel more educated and more empowered after seeing this movie.

I find it scary and sad that we still live in a world that would oppress people the way we do. It's a long struggle but one I feel we'll eventually overcome.

Okay. enough with the heavy subject.. I seriously recommend this movie. SERIOUSLY. :)
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Life

Life is hard. They always tell you that but nobody seems to be able to really explain how bad it can get.

Money is the root of all of my evil.

I know that money can't buy happiness but if I wasn't in so much debt to everyone and my mother it wouldn't be so hard to stay positive.

Last night was really hard for me. I almost went to a very dark place I haven't been in a really long time. More on that later.

gotta go take my "four year old" (her words not mine) to pre-school and get an x-ray.

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Hailey's Gingerbread House Tradition..

In case you missed it last year... when she was a year old she tried to eat her gingerbread house.... by biting it. Thus started a tradition that makes me giggle!



2005



2006



2007



2008

She's getting so big :)

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Sometimes you feel like a nut..

Well. I always feel like a nut but that's beside the point.

So it's been a busy month for me and it's just getting more busy... I had fun at my moms surprise party... Got to see a lot of people I didn't even realize I missed that much. She was REALLY surprised and really excited.

We also had our party for our church musical groups which was fun. Chatting with everyone and eating some DELICIOUS food. It's always hard to leave! Hailey had a blast too.

This last weekend I had my work Christmas party which was a total blast. I love dressing up and going out and hanging out with cool people from work is always nice. It was a really cool place and we had lots of good food and chocolate fountains. yes. amazing. They also had this nifty photo booth thing where we got to take as many pictures as we wanted.. and boy did I!



Just one of the MANY we took..

Other than that I'm just gearing up for Disneyland this weekend with Hailey and Andrew! Should be lots of fun and hopefully not too cold.. then I'm taking Hailey to meet her dad and she's going to spend Christmas with him. We'll do some juggling but it looks like a busy Christmas week for the fam. We're going to be doing our Christmas for her on the 27th, as well as with my grandparents.

Other than that I've just got something going on every single night until early January... oh. and a Doc app for my foot. I think I may have to have surgery. Scary stuff. Nothing too serious but it's surgery none-the-less.

Hope you're all having a good Holiday season and enjoying the cold weather.. I'm sure not! I hate being cold!

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Laughing Baby.

So Hailey has this little "hide and go seek" doll that you hide and then there is a little transmitter that you push the button and it tells you if your hot or cold.. kind of cool.. but the stupid thing laughs and laughs when you can't find her and it's REALLY annoying!

anywho. I've been feeling kind of icky lately with my stomach and a lovely sinus THING that wont go away. The doc said it was "acid reflux" but the pills I've been taking don't help.. I just feel puky every time I eat, but I get really hungry so I have to eat something.. it doesn't matter what it is... I still feel gross. So it's a conundrum...

I'm looking forward to the holidays but I'm also stressing out about how busy I am and how many people I have things to buy for. I know everyone is stressed at this time of year making things happen and you'd think I'd plan better but I'm a fly by the seat of my pants kind of person. So here I am worried about all the people I have to buy gifts for and I have to stop and think.. in the end I'm super blessed to have so many good friends and family that I can buy gifts for... I shouldn't feel so overwhelmed and I should just remember what it's all about. Jesus was born. How amazing is that?

Off to try and eat something. my mom got homemade tamales... YUM!

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Blog on the run...

It seems to me that the only way I can blog is "on the run" meaning in between doing things... so it never comes out quite the way I'd like and there are probably lots of typos and all that madness but I just have to put it down and "edit on the run" later... I want to figure out how to blog from my phone because that would make my life OH so much easier since 98% of the time I'm not on an actual computer so I can't update everyone.. damn. I just wasted half my five minutes of blogging time on how I don't have time to blog...

So lots of fun things are happening this month and next month.. I'm seriously booked pretty much solid through the end of December with parties and events and concerts and goodness... I can't really disclose everything for fear spies will read this and report back to the Peruvian government and ruin the surprise.. why Peru? I don't know.. probably the giant piece of Peruvian art on the wall behind me...

**EDITED**

Back to my room.. I was just checking on my DL for my SD card. I'm so excited for this because I finally have my music back! :)

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Yes We Can

George "Hey Meghan, you know what's awesome?" "what??" "Barack Obama is our new president"

I'm so excited for change. This is a huge day in the lives of many. I am so proud to be an American. I want to run up and down the streets and yell and scream and cry and laugh.

Tomorrow looks like it's going to be a better day...

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Yes We Can.

Halloween

I'll post pictures for you later but Hailey is "mitchie" from camp rock (to her she's just a rockstar) and I am dressed as an 80's rockstar. crimped hair and all.


gotta go watch the treaters and take the wee one out.

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Meme...

1. Where is your cell phone? couch
2. Your significant other? Andrew
3. Your Hair? Multicolored
4. Your Skin? freckl-ie
5. Your mother? Funny
6. Your favorite thing? Music
7. Your dream last night? Short
8. Your favorite drink? Pepper
9. Your dream/goal? Family
10. The room you're in? Toys
11. Your ex? Friends
12. Your fear? Alone
13.Where do you want to be in 6 years? Successful
14.Where were you last night? Church
15.What you're not? Subtle
16.Muffins? Tops!
17.One of your wish list items? Laptop
18.Where you grew up? Here
19.The last thing you did? Candy
20.What are you wearing? Jammies
21.Your TV? ON
22.Your pets? Sadie
23. Your computer? Dead
24. Your life? Unpredictable
25. Your mood? Impatient.
26. Missing someone? Boy
27. Your car? Javier
28. Something you're not wearing? Ring
29. Favorite Store? Target
30. Your summer? uneventful.
31. Like someone? Lots
32. Your favorite color? Pink
33. When is the last time you laughed? Now
34. Last time you cried? Months
35. Who will respond to this? Lisa?
36. Who's Answers are you anxious to see? YOURS!

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*cough cough*

I'm sick. again.

what else is new right? I'm about to take some really "good" cold medicine that will hopefully knock me on my butt and help me sleep and feel better tomorrow.

I'm hoping to blog soon about something that's weighing on my heart, however I don't know if I should put it out there..

Pray for me?

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I can't stop smilling

I'm really happy right now.
I've finally gotten into a groove at work.
I've got a great family who drives me nuts in all the best ways.
I'm becoming stronger in my faith.
I've got this "mommy" thing "down" (for the most part)
I met an amazing guy who makes me smile.

yeah. you heard right. There's a new "dude" in my life. I introduced him to the fam-bam and they seem to all like him.. that's all I'm saying for now!

:)

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Four on the Fourth

Today is Hailey's birthday. At 945pm she will have spent four years on this earth. I can't help but think of all the things that have changed in my life and hers since she was born. I can't help but wonder if her future is as bright as it can be. I can't help but wonder if the world is going to be the same when she's 18..

I can however tell you that I'm at peace today. I love my daughter with all my heart and I wish her the best.

Happy Birthday little Rose. Mommy loves you.

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Sickness

Being sick sucks. Mostly because the medicine I'm on makes me so tired I can't function while I'm on it and because being sick makes me wish I was five again and could curl up on the couch and watch cartoons all day.

but today it's back to reality. I'm 24 (weird) and I have to be a grown up and go to work.

Boo.

In other news not having insurance sucks too. Medicine and doctor visits are REALLY expensive!

Off to work.

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