Crossroads

I'm home today for stupid reasons. My work decided that my opinion and anger was too much for them and they "suspended" me for the rest of yesterday (about an hour and a half) and today. I was angry and I was upset but I'm actually enjoying time at home relaxing and feeling MUCH better than I was (sickness wise) yesterday. I got to sleep in, gave the dog a ridiculous haircut (*giggle*) and I'm about to upload pictures and get some things together.. as angry as I still am I'm realizing I'm at a crossroads in my life and I need to decide what to do with it. I can't work at this job forever and I want to wake up in the morning and love what I do. I want to make some money, but more importantly I want to be able to spend time with my family and my daughter. I want to be able to see her grow into the beautiful girl/ woman I know she's going to be.. So I'm going to sit here and discover what it is that makes me happy.. Lisa and I had dinner last night and it was great! I got to really talk to her in a way I haven't been able to before. I knew she was amazing but I never realized how much until we were sitting on the couch and I was listening to her talk about her time in Africa and Peru. She was sharing stories with me and I realized just how much she's done and how amazing she is. She's so well traveled and wise beyond her years, and she told me it's because nobody ever thought she could do it. She's got a masters degree and has traveled to FOUR continents. She's worked with Children in Africa and Peru and is also an amazing musician, singer and (now) actress (*Grin*) She's got this fire about her and you can't help but be on fire when you're around her. She's lit this fire within me and I can't say that it's going to be easy or fast, but I'm going to take this crossroad and make something of myself.

~outtie <3