drowning

I'm drowning in the stress and ways of life.

my life.

I think I'm always doomed to suck. It's hard when you hit your prime at 17.

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This is amazing

Sean our youth minister did a sermon based on this. it speaks volumes.

Ret Her into rore hawrt

soooo cute.



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Torn

So I'm really excited to start school this next Fall for REAL but I'm actually going to take a class this summer and I'm REALLY torn on what class to take, what times and if I should just work weekends at Disney.. the sad thing is I know I have to quit Disney because there is no way I can work and go through the program I'm going to be in.. it's super intense so for the next three years I'm pretty much screwed and not going to have any money.. but it'll be worth it in the end.. which is all I can keep telling myself.

I hate not knowing what's going on. I hate not knowing if I've gotten money or not or if I've gotten accepted for summer or not or if I'll even be able to GET a class this summer since I'm the lowly freshman on the totem pole again. Wow.. Freshmeat all over again. haha.

I feel really good about this though. Like, REALLY good. I'm excited to start a new life I just wish I could hurry up and hear back.

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Cypress College

I'm finally doing it. I've decided to suck it up and go back to school because I'm tired of dead end jobs that don't pay me enough.. not to mention they're time consuming and I have to work while the rest of the world plays. I'm going to the campus tomorrow to check out the financial aid situation and how much transfers and all that goodness.

I'm terrified. pray for me?

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Me Gusta Bailar.

Just had to share this from George's Youtube Tuesday. HILARIOUS. I couldn't stop laughing when I saw this. mostly because it took me back to spanish in high school...



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HOT

Where the heck did summer come from out of NOWHERE?! I'm super excited because after 23 years of telling them my family finally gave in and is buying an airconditioner for my window.. I'm SO excited that I'll actually be able to sleep while it's hot!

Nothing worse than having to sleep with a lunchbox "blue cool" thing just to TRY to get your body temp down low enough to sleep. It was AWFUL last night.

anyway. I'm taking a hiatus from disney. I need some time to recoup.

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Tired.

I'm tired of working so hard for nothing. I'm tired of balancing a third life outside of my own. I'm tired of never having what I want and barley having what I need. I'm just tired.

I want Cypress and the Government to freakin respond to me already so I can start planning my school path out. I also want to find another job that's not so exhausting before I start school because I don't think I can hang at disney while in school.

I also wish I could sleep better... for some reason I was super tired but kept waking up last night. BOO.

Oh well. I have to suck it up and go to work...

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Holiday in NOT so express

So I'm totally in the lobby of the hotel we're staying at writing this just because we have time to kill because our room isn't ready. Which sucks since we have to be at a wedding in two hours... and there are four of us... and one room... and one bathroom. Screw this. And the lady cleaning it is taking forEVER! BOOOOOO.

But my luggage is still cute. haha.

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Bakersfield Wedding..

I've got one today and one in a few weeks... something in the water up there is making people want to get married I guess.. haha. So we're getting ready to leave and I'm excited because I FINALLY get to use my super cute luggage.. it's black and pink with polka dots. . I also have a matching handbag to go with it. So our Van Creep was back last night... he wasn't being crazy when I got home but I called the cops anyway... too bad I fell asleep before I could witness the hilariousness.

Last night was fun! First we played Catchphrase and then went to Animal Crackers (awesome dive bar) to do some karaoke! I saw someone I haven't seen in a LONG time.. i'll just leave it at that.. but we had a good time!

Oh man. some lady hustled us at Disney yesterday. We were on the cart in front of Finding Nemo (dubbed the 7-11 of carts) and this lady walks up clutching her chest claiming she's having a "diabetic attack" and she needs a coke... she says her husband is on his way and he'll pay for it, but she needs the sugar now. I was VERY suspicious about her "diabetic attack" and I almost told her to sit down and I'd call security and the first aid so they could come out and help her, but we're taught to trust our guests and she took the soda and walked over to a group of people where she proceeded to hand it straight to her kids... I was watching them out of the corner of my eyes but then I had to help someone else and when I looked back she was gone...

I hate when people do crap like that. Especially with something like diabetes. I may not know tons about it, but I do know if it were a real "diabetic attack" she wouldn't be "out of breath" and clutching herself. Screw you lady. and you're "attack". We did call Security and let them know what was going on so she wouldn't try it at other carts... you know.. I need a churro for the sugar. Screw you lady! Hopefully they caught her.

So I better get back to getting all my stuff together. I'm seriously obsessed with the new Panic CD, but the crap thing is we're all riding to bako together so no chance of me listening to what I want to... BOO!

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Headaches and ninja snatching.

I have a headache and a half! I mean.. I even took something for it and it STILL wont go away.. I thought it was from my headband so I took that off and it helped a little but not completely. I blame it on the fact that I had to tote 50+ balloons around fantasyland for six hours today... in the wind. NOT FUN! You spend all day holding on for dear life and looking up at a tree of balloons... I hit a few hundred people in the face/ head/ back with them too... it was mostly and accident.. all but one of them just laughed about it... one gave me a dirty look like I did it on purpose! I can't control the wind hoebag!

I'm excited for Saturday and I worked it out with Disney so I have Saturday and Sunday off... too bad I have to work ass-early on Friday to make up for it... WHY did I request a morning shift? Oh yeah.. because mornings there are usually at 10... too bad I'm scheduled at 715... I'm not alive before 9!

anywho. I'm off to attempt to ninja snatch the remote out of my sleeping fathers hand... I'm going for the switchitwiththevcrremote approach... wish me luck! :)

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Disneyland and Wind

are no fun! I went to the park yesterday with a BUNCH of really good friends, new friends and some people I didn't know who became friends.. we had a BLAST playing this game called "your team" too hard to explain.. but it's amazingly entertaining in long lines and when you're waiting for anything...

The best part about yesterday was that even though the lines for everything were super long we all had such a good time in line it didn't seem to bother anyone... I mean we laughed and talked and joked around with each other SO much that it just made it FUN to be in line!

The crappy part that still wasn't that bad was the wind... and cancellations! They canceled the HSM2 float at DCA for some unknown reason.. and we love bursting into the song and dance all over the park... then they canceled Fantasmic for some unknown reason which is sad because I still haven't seen it in FOREVER... and THEN we got amazing seats for the fireworks RIGHT in front of the castle... well they made the famous "due to high winds it MAY be canceled" speech and we all said screw it and booked it to Space Mountain to use our fastpass we got since Indie broke down (BOO)... when we get off space mountain we're all laughing and happy because I looked like an idiot in my picture (I made my "rollercoaster face" hopefully I'll have a picture up soon) and we hear the music for the fireworks start... we all run full speed from the exit of space mountain to the entrance of tomorrowland to TRY and get a seat for the fireworks... we had okay seats but not amazing cause we couldn't really see the castle.. which is awesome... they got to the Indiana Jones part and then due to those damn high winds they had to cancel the rest of the show! At least my friends got to see the Haunted Mansion part of the fireworks which is one of my favorite parts!

Today I'm on Mainstreet. I got to sleep in because tonight is going to be a LONG night. and all I have to say is there BETTER NOT BE HIGH WINDS!

I wanna see those fireworks...

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Sundays

For me are for church, lunch and naps.

but no. I have to go to work.. and at 1030am. BOO.

I hate when my routine is thrown off.. and I was dreaming about Starbucks last night.

Now if my brother would get out of the bathroom I might actually be on time..

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Bills... College... Changes...

Don't you wish you could get a "catch up" card? Like someone would just pay off your debt and give you a few months breathing room? I hate that no matter how hard I try not to be in the hole every week/ two weeks/ month I am. Somehow I get by but it's getting super ridiculous that I can't seem to catch up. I'm also applying for college now because I'm sick of not having a direction.. I think I'm mostly terrified that if I get into something I'm going to be "stuck" with it for the rest of my life, but looking at it even if I do start a career type job with college training I'm just opening up my opportunities to see what I really want and I can eventually make more money to pursue other things.

anyway. I've applied to Cypress College and am enrolling in the Radiology program to become an x-ray tech. It's a big step for me.. I've also applied for financial aid. so all the prayer and good vibes you can muster would be awesome.

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Tomorrowland Costume Part Duex

So I've mentioned the loathing I feel toward these lovely costumes and I had to post the two pictures I happened to take on my phone the other day... they aren't great but you'll get the idea...

This is a close up of the "celestial" fabric covering the front part..

I call this one embracing the cheese... hence the hat and cheeseball grin.



now what you can't see is the sleeves which have that bright orange and blue fabric with a few of those buttons and some random grey/ silver... what you also can't tell is that those buttons go from left to right in a sort of "panel" and they aren't "buttons" but snaps... so you know.. you can rip them off if you ever want to become a tomorrowland stripper...

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ps. that's the back of Indie :)

Tomorrowland Costume

So this is a quick little diddy to let you know the loathing I feel towards the new tomorrowland costumes. They're ridiculous. Orange and Blue with "celestial" panels.

okay so blogger is orange and blue. but blogger isn't something you WEAR..

and just take a guess at where I got put today?! Guess?! yeah.

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Snoop Dogg and Le Tiredness.

So I was walking out to my lunch totally in my own little Meghan world when I see these people like taking pictures of something.. I look around and don't see any characters so I'm confused but still walking and all of a sudden I almost run into this big huge bodyguard type guy... so I apologize to him and look up and see Snoop walking across Mainstreet drinking a Dasani... maybe THAT'S why I sold so much water. product placement. anyway ... It was super random.. gotta love disney..

oh. and I heard from one of our leads that later he bought 35 waters off one of our carts... that'll be $96.25 please... how the hell do you carry 35 bottles of water?! Oh right. Money. haha.

So I'm super tired and sore today from working yesterday and I don't want to go to work this week at ALL. I'm considering changing my availability to only available after 230 or something... especially since Hailey will be in preschool and I want to be able to take her and pick her up... so I might as well get them used to that schedule. Plus working at 11 or 12 means I have to wake up, shower, get a costume together and leave. which is uber lame.

and I don't even have the costume I need for today. I'm totally wearing one of my random ones and changing. HAH! I'm not so happy with Disney right now. Mostly my hours just REALLY suck. I've gotta stick with it even though I really don't want to.. why can't I get paid to do something I actually like? You know. like sleeping or singing.. that'd be sweet.

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Friday Night.. and the moooood is right

wow. I think back to the days I used to wait for Friday night because I was soooo excited to watch TGIF. Hah.. Now I'm getting ready to go out in a few hours...

anyway.

I guess this is a quick post to say that I don't feel like I'm really in my body. I hate boys and I wish they would stop playing games. KEVIN.

and Brad.

eh. someone'll appreciate me someday.

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Mainstreet Balloons...

yes. that's where I was today... and let me tell you holding 45 or more balloons for 8 hours aint easy... I earned my money today! First of all it was windy... which if you can imagine with the hundreds of people walking around gets pretty messy because you have to try NOT to take out little kids with your gaggle of balloons (but it's pretty funny when you hit some unsuspecting person in the face with them... total accident.. I SWEAR! *grin*) Then there is the fact that during the day you can't really walk around mainstreet anyway since the horses are spooked by the balloons (although that'd be a carriage ride the guests would never forget... haha) and THEN there is the simple fact that you have these incredibly heavy (yes heavy) handful of balloons that you have to maneuver while tying weights on the bottom of one of them and taking money/ giving change... But never-the-less I loved it!

On another note I was in SUCH a bad mood yesterday... you know that whole chain of events thing where everything was just going wrong and eventually you wonder if you're on some sort of hidden camera show? yeah. that was my day yesterday.. But I got an amazingly hilarious message from Lisa that made my night.. oh! And some psychic wanted to give me a reading while I was walking back from my break.. she gave me her number and she's like.. I'm getting something VERY strong from you.. it was kind of creepy and one of those things where you're like.. Now I want to know what it is!! Oh and I seriously HATE churro sugar now... like hate. It's in every single pocket of my teal uniform and I have a silicone phone cover that I could wrap in a waxie and sell for three bucks.... heh.

I was seriously blogging in my head the other day while I was driving home from Bakersfield.. I want to sit down and write out the difference between Orange County/ La Habra and Bakersfield because of anyone.. I'd know! But I'm way too tired to do it tonight :) So that's all my ramblings for tonight... I'm off to bed...

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ps. I switched to Diet... and it's not all that bad :)

Let my lifesong sing

I've had that song stuck in my head all night.. except I've had the VDC band version... "let my lifelong ling..." haha. Good times.

I had the best time hanging out with Jessica and Dane the other night.. we started off at Back Alley (lame) went to Envy (Uber lame) Went to Ziings (watched part of Harold and Kumar and laughed at the four people dancing.. lame) and then ended up at Tuscany where we met the most amazing guys from New Zealand. They were SO funny because they'd never been to the US before and were so culture shocked at how different it was here. We pretty much just talked to them the whole night and tried to let them in on a little of our culture while learning from them as well... aka "the American pound" and the "New Zealand snap". Now if you're slightly confused think about a room full of guys who are saying hello.. now imagine they don't know each other well but are expressing their good feelings towards them. They might do the "hand grab two pounds on the back" hug or they might do the "hand slide to a fist" right? Well I guess in New Zealand they have a different approach.. they slide their hands off each other and get a good snap and then they snap their fingers and point out... of course to american guys this may seem rather.. erm... girly so we had to set them straight. We spent the WHOLE night discussing the difference between Orange County/ LA and New Zealand. Down to the tattoo parlors and how expensive everything is there. They were fascinated that a Honda only costs about 24,000 brand new. There it was something like 40,000... haha.

Anyway. My new friends aside I just had a good time singing some karaoke... now this is my other story from the night. I'm not the most confident person on the planet when it comes to anything, however I know there are people who wouldn't get up to karaoke unless overly drunk, and I can get up there drinking only water which I know is a feat in itself.. however I can't help but laugh because it seems that EVERY TIME I do karaoke... and I do mean EVERY time... I get a drunk person who comes up to me after and slurs at me.. "you are a really good singer!! You should be on American Idol!!! Have you auditioned yet!? You totally should!" I just smile and tell them yes. I'm eventually going to audition and they go on their happy drunk way.

All of that was Wednesday night. yes Wednesdays can be fun too. :)

Yesterday wasn't nearly as interesting.. although errand thursday's can be fun. I went to the bank (haha) with Jessica to screw myself out of money *eye roll... long story* then took my car in to pay way too much money for an oil change, checked out buffalo exchange... which was entertaining and I bought my first pair of giant sunglasses... and then came home.

on a side note. Scrubs is awesome.

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